Another Long Sigh

This one is partially a sigh of relief, the other part is frustration at not being able to move yet!!

My car is up and running again. Apparently the starter went out, so we had to replace that.

Dad’s car is still in Burlington, but hopefully we are getting that fixed this weekend. We were going to try and get it fixed this past Saturday, but it was windy and chilly, so it was postponed. Hopefully this weekend is better.

Still nothing for sure on a house. Perhaps I will know something on a house in Westphalia on Thursday, but I’m not counting on anything. I hope, I pray……We have to get out of here, so I can cook and clean, so we can have our own space….It’s just too much to stay here much longer!!

Anyway, I need to finish up some other work, so I’m off for now.

Big, Long Sigh

No this is NOT a sigh of relief, this is one of those “When will it all end” sighs.

I had not realized it had been so long since I had done an entry over here…Almost a month, I’m certainly falling down on the job. It’s just really hard when I don’t have free access anytime I want to the internet. I wish my laptop were working properly!!!

Both cars are broke down at the moment….oh joy! Mine is here at home, hopefully being picked up and taken into Waverly today to find out what is wrong with it. Dad’s broke in Burlington, so I have to try and figure out how to get it home, except it will probably go to the shop in Waverly to be fixed as well. We sort of know what’s wrong with that one. There is some sort of line that is busted. While it is at the shop I’m going to see how much they will charge to put the new piece in the steering column so that we can use the key to turn it on, instead of a screw driver in the ignition switch.

It’s just after 9am here, and I’ve been waiting for 24 hours for them to come get my car. I’m upset because the girls are missing school. They are upset because they are missing school. I have bills to deliver, and laundry that desperately needs done. I NEED a car of some sort!!!!!!

Failing?

There are times that I wonder if I’m failing as a mother. The girls are the light of my life, my reason for living, and yet there are times when I get upset with them, or take my personal frustrations out on them. Please remember that I am only human, and perhaps you have done the same thing at some point also.

Des went to school crying, because of a few things I said in the car. *sigh* I was sorry about 2 seconds after I left the school, but by then I couldn’t apologize to her. I am sorry that I upset her, sorry that I, the one that should love and protect her, was the one that made her cry over something so silly and stupid I never should have opened my mouth. God please forgive me for screwing up again!!!

I pray that Des understands and will forgive my mistake. I don’t want to be the cause of her unhappiness!! So often it seems that I am, and I hate that!!!